A Dark Path
Janet Roth and her husband, Kerry, are such a blessing to me personally, as well as to Journey Church. I love their humility, their passion for the lost, and their thirst for God’s Word.
I prayed to God about getting married, told God the person I was going to marry was born again. I felt this is what the Lord had for me. A person I loved dearly who never spoke bad of anyone told me,” he’s not right for you.” I did not realize that was the Spirit actually speaking to me through my friend. Needless to say that marriage did not work. I was in a very dark spot at that time, realizing I let God down by not obeying him. I felt I was no longer a child worthy of His love. I just wanted to die! I’m notgonna go into details, but I was in a very dark place. I felt that I deserved to die and be cast to hell by not obeying my Lord.
Life is full of uncertainties, ups and downs and challenges. Things can go wrong and feel out of our control at any time. When these things happen, our tendency is to want to control the situation. But, unfortunately, that’s not really possible. Rather, in those times, we are called to put our faith and trust in God. Proverbs 16:9 says; “ We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.”
The Lord told me that He would deal with my ex-husband. I left it in His hands. I’d made my mind up I’d never disappoint my Lord again. I’m so glad that I have God as a forgiving father. Even if you think you’ve messed up beyond repair, God can still do incredible things in and through you. As we see throughout Bible people made mistakes and God still used them for His purpose. There is still a purpose for your life – even if you’ve messed up. God has shown me so many things, in so many ways, all throughout my life. Best of all , no matter what, I was still His child ,and yes, He loves me. I was to pick myself up and follow Him. He has led me to where I need to be. Thank you Lord. I have gone through my dusty paths and at times still do. But the Lord holds my hand. And to this day He takes the lead.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:5-6 NLT
Make it a Mindful Monday! God is good…